Saturday, February 20, 2010

Just because I'm a writer...doesn't mean I'm lost. We all are.

People should take pride in their miseries. The shit you go through in life has a lot to do with what you become.

Everyday I feel like I am losing a part of me, and finding this whole new person inside me. Then, there are days when I miss me, and again there are days when I wake up and I feel like I have been sleeping for a long time...Like I have been living a dream. Not in a good way or a bad way, nothing cynical about it, just when you look back and you feel like you have been living like someone else...Doesn't make much sense, I know. But then if it did, this blog would have been called "".

Chris Martin of Coldplay has a way with words. He says in his song 'Lost', "Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost...You might be a big fish in a little pond, doesn't mean you've won 'cuz along will come a bigger one...and you'll be lost..."

Take a minute to take this all in.



What a journey it is, this life...of triumphs and failures. And in the end, all is lost. Nothing matters, except who you have become. If we would only realize the race is not amongst us. In the end we are all nothing but lost. Ha ha! The medals, the triumphs, the failures, all amount to a big zero! What are we arguing about?

Acceptance is key. And it's right there inside us. But that too, is lost.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Who are you?

I am the kinda gal who sees things for what they are. Most of the time. I work at it very consciously, but of course, there are times when I find it difficult to keep the third person perspective on things.

In spirituality they say, we should learn to move away from our likes and dislikes and start 'witnessing' situations, people and life as objects. This is a subtle concept. The idea behind it is basically to slowly become less attached to people and things. Again, a very misunderstood idea.

Attachment causes pain. Attachment means expectations. Expectations means disappointment, means hurt, means anger so on and so forth. They are subtle concepts, hard to practice, very easy to preach. Lifetimes are spent in this attempt to overcome attachment.

At a much simpler level, if we just observe people, or ourselves, we will see that a person who has more likes and dislikes, will experience more pain and disappointment. I guess, that is why all spiritual people, all religions talk about 'contentment'.

Freedom from likes and dislikes makes us freer. Like a vagabond living beside a lake, with the clouds as his blanket and the milkyway as his night light.

One last thought, as babies, I don't think we have any likes and dislikes as such. Remember, how experimental you were as a 2-year-old? Hey, let's play this and let's break that! And let's try putting our finger in the socket!

How much of us is conditioning?

And when they ask us to write, "About you" in those social networking websites, what do we end up writing...Name, qualification, interests...some we are born with, but most of these answers have already be given to us...

Let us try and probe further.

So tell me, "about yourself". Who are you? And I don't want to know what you do, or where you live or what you like. Let's hear it then.